If you have the mommy manual , could be please make a couple of copies and send them my way?!! Some days , I just don’t know lol. I don’t know how I’m alive, how I run off of little sleep , how I birthed a kid that is almost six years old. It’s kinda like when you drive a long distance and once you get to your destination you think ” umm I don’t even remember driving, breaking or changing lanes.” ( I can’t be the only one that does that lol) I think the same about being a mom like whooo I’m glad he’s made it to five safely because I don’t know how I did it! Some days are super fun and easy and then some days I need a bottle of vodka. He is in this stage where he wants to know why everything happens and sometimes I dont have the answers. No answers leads to more questions. “Why don’t you know that mommy?” Whilst pulling my hair out I say ” I don’t know son!” Mommin is a hard yet rewarding thing. But I sure wish it came with Instructions with an index. Thankfully I have my Mom,Dad, Sister and Brothers to call for advice. Because Lord knows it can be tough. Who knew Jax could say” Hey mommy” over 1,000 times a day. 😲 Not even joking lol. Being in the hospital, I think it makes him nervous when crowds of people are around. He will literally dig his nails into my arms, say something random or try to hit me. It took me a couple of times before I figured out why and now I have to remind him “it’s okay, You’re with me and nobody will do anything to you” talk. Some behaviour was due to medication , some because he just wants to try me . I’ll hear people without kids say what they would do if that was their kid screaming in the store, falling on the floor or whatever and I just look at them. Because you don’t know what you would do until you are in that situation, until you have that child with autism or that’s developmentally delayed. I know there never ever will be a manual for how to be a mom because everyone of our angels are special but ya can’t blame me for wishful thinking. I’m going to continue to wing it and pray I get it right. I feel like I’m doing an okay job with my babyman at the moment.
Until Next Time Be Kind to One Another 😉