There is a certain pain you feel when you lose a child. There is no comparison to it. I thought I was hurt in a bad way when I lost my grandma ( Mudda) . Even when I experienced the loss of my best friend Annie (I was severely depressed, in shock, and etc) that [...]
After Jaxson's Memorial January 26th, I spent the weekend in Texarkana. I headed back to Dallas late Sunday afternoon happy with how Jaxsons Celebration had turned out but still feeling hollow inside. Monday I go to the apartment to pick up a package only to find out that since Jax passed away and even though [...]
Amy was right. She was right when she told me I would be lost. She was right when she said I would have to find myself. If you ask me now, "Kandiss....Who are you?" I would not be able to answer. If you would switch the word are to were then I could tell you. [...]
Sometimes, I want to run away to never return until I realize that I am responsible for a kid...my kid.
Today is just one of those days. I'm having anxiety, sadness, anger and I could not tell you why. I think it may have been triggered because I had to retake Jaxson's broviac line 3 times. I feel like I could go outside cry hysterically and scream. I think I'm one of those people that [...]
You Know when you have expectations for people, 9 times out of 10 they will fail to meet said expectations. It can be beyond frustrating because half of the time, the tasks that are not being fulfilled should be common sense. With some people in my life, I say that it is okay. ( it [...]